When I think about the late nights and sleepless ones without a chance to even go to the bathroom.
When I think about the countless books and recipes I read to learnt to cook healthy and creative meals. And sometimes You don’t like them.
When I think on the days struggling during our trips with the stroller, and many times we were traveling alone without daddy.
When I think on the days you cried and I needed to figure what you needed.
When I think that some days I question myself if I am doing it right or not.
When I think that I like to keep you close to make sure you are safe.
When I think this job of motherhood has been the most challenging, hard, scary, and surprising of all (and I thought I already went through the hardest ones). When I think on the days that I am trying to eat and you wish to play and make me forget I was even hungry.
When I think all of those things, and many many many more I feel tired, frightened, and powerless.
Then I think on your little face when we were together bonding during those first days when you arrived in our lives, I couldn’t sleep at all but I learnt to know you.
I think on the day you first went to school with your little backpack and your favorite jeans. You gave me so many kisses that day.
I think on the songs you sing to me each morning when you kiss me to wake up.
I think on your passion for science and to admire how the world works.
And I feel I have a job to do, I have to keep going strong, and see you grow healthy and happy. Nobody can do my job, and thanks to daddy I get strong when I feel weak, I find my way when I am lost, and I am still working to be better each day. #motherhood #motherhoodstruggles #sometimesisnoteasy ...